I am being dogdey and emailing yous cuz, might as well, I am almost done with the mish...JK! I endure to the end. We had Zone Conference yesterday and Mission President Pilkington allowed us to email him and our parents on what we learned and want to apply in our lifes-so hold me accountable for this(:
First things first, Happy Remembrance Day! WE had a 2 min silent at 11 o' clock. It was actually during a lesson with our investigator Zoe. And in mid lesson we stood up and stood silent in remembrance of those who sacrificed their lives since WWI.
But Zone Conference was so so GOOD! President Pilkington and the Assistants to the Pres put in so much work in to this. They give their all, and by all, I mean ALL. Such sacrifice and love(: ZC are a great time for learning and improving. And I'm currently working on how to develop me self to be more Christlike and a better missionary and how I can be more proactive to do so. I'm wondering how I can be a more humble person and I learned loads from Prophet Ezra Taft Benson's 1989 talk 'Beware of Pride'. And in ZC I learn loads on how I can be more charitable and loving, which is of course, linked to humility. It's all connected! (as President Pilkington would say)
President Pilington said, 'It never hurts to be kind,' oh how true that rings. Being charitable is so opposite from the natural man. And so opposite of me, I am never one to express my love. While discussing charity, love, and language, I realised how much I need to improve (a tad overwhelming of the already-ginormous list of things to improve). All the weakness I need to strengthen. The loooong way I need to go to overcome my natural self and become more like Jesus Christ. The things discussed at Zone Conference are my deepest weaknesses. As I reflected over me mission life and me life before the mission, I noticed that these are the things that I should've changed to have a happier life. These are the things I was missing in me life. And the things I needed to change are simply said yet hard to change. A few things that I want to work on are not making any assumptions, taking a moment to think about the situation and what is happening, asking questions without judgement or in a 'human' way. But basically just being a master of me thoughts and controlling them. Assumptions lead to false ideas, or even being critical. I want to think good thoughts of others, even when they might be mean or wrong. I can still find the good in others. I want to improve my relationship with those around me, especially those hard to love.
The way I am going to do this is to train myself and PRACTISE PRACTISE PRACTISE. Practise makes perfect! When a bad thought comes rolling by I need control me thoughts and to stop those bad thoughts from trespassing by following the simple steps of repentance - A, B, C, D, and E. (Acknowledge, Be sorry, Confess, Don't do it again, and Enjoy happiness) In this process it's important to make restitution, and to vocally say the good I see this the person. This is a key thing I struggle with. I often let me mind go on about how this person is wrong or annoying, and then those thoughts are negative, which affect the words and speech that come from me mouth. Chain reaction to a nuclear bomb! No bueno. So I need to stop the thought immediately and then say the good I see directed at the person I had bad thoughts of.
Ultimately, I think the key to overcoming this is always looking outward and continually to lift others up even higher than me self(: I know that this will help, I've done it before but never for too long-a week or two maybe and then I was back to my natural self. And I've been so much happier, it's a night and day difference. I know with diligent practise, this will become a habit and I can then make progress to becoming more like Jesus Christ. To finding who I want to be. Zone Conference was very humbling, yet lifting(:
So hopefully, yous will be able to see this change in me when I arrive home.
Love you mucho! Thanks for putting up with cray cray hyper Aria(:
Oh and also watch this short video...you'll find it on Youtube at www.youtube.com/watch?v=GLq_Vp5z9D4. Shows loads about Charity and a good example of it. We watched it in Zone Conference and took it frame by frame and analysed it. What the Father did compared to the Angry Lady. How the Father taught his Daughter. How to be more Christlike.