I heard that me email didn't go thru on Monday but I re-sent it today(:
Tis getting to the periods of 'Lasts'. Last transfer, last zone conference, last time for the random selector to target me, last time to speak at Zone Conference, last time seeing some of the missionaries and there are more 'last's to come...it's quite sad. The fact that I am going home is starting to hit me...
Well after every Zone Conference, Mission President Pilkington allows us to write to you's(: What a great man, so nice. But he wants us to take away with us what we learned from ZC and to share it with you's so we'll have action to our words.
But I'll start off ZC day with more detail.
So the Harrogate sisters slept over on the Tuesday night - Sis Ahola and Sis Silvenonin (IDK how to spell her last name, but both are Finnish). Sis Ahola and I go home in the same group so at the same time. She was really excited to see me and to sleep over and have a bit of fun. We tried to get Sis Hart to bed early so she could be well rested and comfy for ZC - she still have headaches and they are getting worst...poor lass, bless her. I let Sis S sleep in me bed, top bunk! And I slept on some cushions whilst Sis A slept on the couch in the lounge. She kept me up later than usual...so the next morning I was shattered.
We had to be at the York Chapel at 7am, and the coach left for Billingham at 7.30. So we had to leave our flat at 6.40amand of course, cuz were sisters, we had to wake up earlier than that to get ready. I wanted to wake up at 6 but Sis Ahola woke up at 5.20 and once I am awake I couldn't fall asleep so that made me even more tired. Imagine sis Hart and having a headache, (ouch)! She's a trooper and without complaint. We luckily had a church member drive us 4 to the Chapel, getting a bus at that time would've been killer.
And upon arrival at the York Chapel, Sister Training Leader Dietrich offered us a lift instead of the coach...both options would be pretty bad if you had a headache (you'd know what I mean if you've ever been in a car with Sis D hahaha) We ended up taking the car, I ended up unable to resist to back-seat drive. I think we almost died about 4 times, once we were overtaking a lorry and we pulled off to the on-coming traffic lane to see if any cars were coming, one was a bit far off, but since our Hyundai is dinky and has no horsepower it took too long for it to gain speed to pass the lorry. As we were gaining speed the on-coming car was getting too close for comfort! I was yelling pretty badly, 'Get back, get back!' hahha Sis D was still going for it and pulled back into our lane a bit too close for comfort hahaha ah, driving with Sis D is always an adventure and one way to get your adrenaline pumping. The only reason I'd want to be an STL is to drive haha
But we safely made it to Billingham for ZC(:
I realised thru out ZC that I need to find what is the highest motivating force for me. Pres shared an analogy with us. If there was a 4 inch steel beam between the Twin Towers what would you do to walk that beam 194 stories high with winds so strong it could blow down a building? Money is a low incentive but what would make us walk the beam? family? friends? We try to deduce the same for our church investigators but not so much for ourselves. And for me I think the highest motivating force is either me family - future one included - or me own character and who I want to become.
And at the downwards slope of me mission I have realised things to develop in myself. The ones I learned or relearned from ZC were being more forensic, how to develop me communication skills, learning gospel doctrine, and having integrity. I notised that being observant to things around us is so key for us to pick up clues but also to count our blessings from the Lord and seeing the beauty around us. And I want to develop that further so I am able to understand people better and give them the proper help and guidance to come unto Christ.
When I first came out on a mission, I knew me weak points of communication. I have the hardest time of speaking clearly and concisely. I am a horrible public speaker, I disliked it loads. And I've always wanted to be the person who shares profound and helpful tips. But I learned that studying and pondering are key to being able to give that profound knowledge. And with that knowledge, I want to learn the doctrines of the Gospel of Jesus Christ better. I really liked what you shared about doctrine and power. I kind of have a fear that I'll revert to the person I was pre-mission. And I feel as when I learn and apply the doctrine I will have that power to endure.
And Pres shared the story about 'Going back to Egypt' and that was great for me to hear. Moses and his people finally got out of Egypt. The people celebrate, they are happy! They are promised a land of milk and honey. And they complain and want to go back to Egypt after not immediately obtaining their promised blessing. Over their course in the wilderness they complain and complain and want to 'Go back to Egypt'. The blessing is theirs for the taking if they just reach out and grab it. As a mission we've developed so much. And I've developed loads on the mission and I want to keep climbing the mountain of progression. Life will always have challenges, even members of the Church have them. And it's a falsehood when people think when they join the Church they'll have no problems. If that were the case everyone would be members of our Church haha I have that drive to keep being better and I want to. So I won't be 'Going back to Egypt'.
And Sis Pilkington shared lovely words too, I could listen to her for ages. She's so well spoken, she has learned the art of communication. She's a great role model of it! I definitely agree with the words she shared about being obedient to the Lord and grateful for His blessings. When we see the blessings around us, even the simple things that we see everyday, we see much Heavenly Father has given us. Our love deepens for Him and we want to be obedient to Him. I have parallel thoughts, but she added integrity to the picture. You, me parents have always encouraged me that when I do something, do it 100% and do it right in every aspect. Mum hates when jobs are done sloppily because she ends up having to do it all over. So I've learned this principle, and had to relearn it on the mission and was reminded of it at ZC. This is another thing I want to grow. And it's going to take loads of work and energy, but it'll be so worth it. I'll be dependable to those around me.
I also liked what Sis Pilkington shared about studying more about the Saviour Jesus Christ and His life. We should do this daily anyway but when we have a rough tough day we should do it even more. It'll help us in the most perfect ways. This assuredly rings true, because I've done it before. I love to take a moment and appreciate nature. Observing England's green hills in the country is the best. And I'll miss it. I want to have a stronger relationship with me Saviour and appreciate more fully for what He has done for me individually.
I've learned loads of valuable lessons from ZC, It's sad it's me last one. But I made sure to take sturdy notes. When I arrive home, I'll compile all me notes into one so I can easily access the 'gold' I've collected on me mission.
Well I've got a big To-Do list but small and simple steps, right?
Love you loads, ta rah. See you soon,